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December 13th; a long awaited day; an anticipated day. How I longed to join the list of my predecessors who had sat on tables and signed out book; their books, their own creation, a piece of themselves given out to the readership.
The day came and went, but alas! New reality was about to hit me in the face.
I love meeting with God outdoors. The trees, the flowers, the butterflies, the green grass, the fresh breeze…there’s something about these that just draw me so close to my Maker, my Creator.
But on this fateful day I wasn’t basking in His love as usual. I wasn’t sitting there, awe-stricken by the beauty of His creation. I was looking for something to hold onto. I was worried. I needed validation from the one in whose name I’d done what I did.
“Lord, are you also ashamed of me?”
“Why are they looking at me like that? Why are my friends avoiding me? Why the weird look on their faces? Why are they “unfriending” me on Face book? Why do my own family relations desire to ask me questions after reading those books, Lord?
Did I say things that hurt them? Did I give away too much of myself? Was I too transparent? Lord, why are they ashamed to identify with me now?
Lord, are you also ashamed of me? Are you ashamed of me because I said too much about the messes, failures, frailties and struggles of my past?
I wish I hadn’t added that little detail. I wish I’d kept this one secret. How I hate myself for having talked about that thing I did. I shouldn’t have exposed what they did to me”
Genuinely speaking, I was full of regret about lots of things I’d said in those books.
The great testimonies I got from some of my readers couldn’t compensate for the strange reactions I was receiving from close friends and relations. I was beaten down by shame and regret. I’d given away too much and it was too late to take it back.
At least that’s how I felt that day.
I really thought God must be very ashamed of me for exposing my past messiness and bringing dishonor to His HOLY NAME.
Then, came the lever out of hell. These are the words I wrote in my journal that day:
“What matters to me is not the size of my bank account, how beautiful and admired I am, how accepted I am. What matters to me is making a difference in people’s lives.
What is the use of having a bank account that’s full to the brim or a spotless name when you can’t give hope to desperate people around you? I won’t hold back or run now? I won’t fear to speak out. I can’t disown my past.
My past is my ministry and my ministry is my past. To disown my past is to disown my ministry and I can’t do that. I’ll rather be rejected and ostracized than shut up and watch people perish.
God has called me to use my past as a message to pull people out of their mess. I’m proud to be a world-changer, a person whose contribution is making the world a better place for us all”.
The Lord spoke to me. He held me in His arms and told me He was proud of me because I’d accepted to lay down my pride, dignity and name for the lost. It’s a sacrifice, a bitter and embarrassing sacrifice. It’s not easy but it’s worth it.
Jesus showed us the example by accepting the shame of the CROSS. Will you lay down your name, fame, gain, pride and dignity in order to put a smile on that tear-stained face?
God is asking you today.
It’s a season for me to reflect,
To look back and reflect on the distance we have covered together,
Since that day You took me by the hand
And showed me there is more to life than pain and shame.
Gentle Lord and Savior,
I’m so blessed to be yours, and for ever,
I pledge my eternal allegiance and loyalty,
My love and submission to your will.
But there will be days when it seems hard to take the narrow road,
Yet you have promised never to leave me nor forsake me,
With this promise I look to future with hope,
For faithful are You to bring me home save to you.
Something wonderful happened to me this week.
The Lord told me to forgive some people who’ve hurt me so badly
and to go meet them and pray for them.
You could think it’s that easy, but I spent a sleepless night just imagining
how I will have to go down to those people who owe me
apologies, tell them I forgive them, then pray for them.
But I finally swallowed my pride and timidity and did just that.
When I began to pray with one of them, she just broke down to tears…especially when I
mentioned that I’m releasing her from the prison of my heart so that she can get blessed.
I just realized how much hurt I had been causing by keeping them in the prison of my heart.
At the end of it all, I felt so good, free and joyous. They too.
I challenge you to do same. Do not hold that person in the prison cell of your heart any longer. Do not even wait for God to say so.
Release them, pray for them and you will get blessed yourself.
It’s good to know God is not keeping someone in bondage because I, His servant have refused to forgive them.
Remember Jesus said, whom we forgive He will forgive too.
Do you find it hard to trust yourself? Are you scared of taking decisions because you’re afraid to make mistakes and bear the consequences?
Self-doubt is a thief who will steal your joy, your sense of self-worth and self-confidence; it will keep you in a stupor too fearful to try things out and discover their outcome.
Self–doubt immobilizes you with fear. You dread taking risks because you do not want to fail.
But the truth is, in life we can’t achieve much without stepping out to try things out and then see what we get at the end of the road. We only have to trust God at such moments to lead and guide us in the right direction, and to bring us back on track when we go astray.
What are some of the things that provoke self-doubt?
- You’ve messed up too many times in life and you’re afraid to mess up another time. You prefer to play it safe this time.
- You’ve been disappointed so often; you’d rather be careful.
- You’ve been hurt too much; you won’t let it happen to you again; your guards are always up.
- You’ve often been told you’re no good; you now belief it’s true. You don’t want to confirm that ugly report.
- The devil is plaguing you with the spirit of fear and dread. You are under captivity and you need deliverance.
- You just hate trying out new things; you’re the comfort zone kind of person.
Self-doubt in itself is not bad, especially the kind that pushes you to ask questions, try out new recipes and do research to find answers. This can actually lead to self-improvement which we all need.
What I’m talking about here is the kind of negative, tormenting self-doubt that makes you to devalue yourself and to doubt your own capability at achieving anything great.
When we understand that God has promised never to leave us or abandon us, that He will not be very angry with us for messing us, that He will readily take us back and continue to love us even when we’ve made mistakes, we will be more willing to take bold steps and to leap forward, counting on Him to see us through.
So what is the cure for self-doubt?
Trust that God knows your doubt and that He’s ready to give you answers when you ask him questions. Trust that He will faithfully guide and lead you along the way. Trust that Christ in you is wisdom, power and a sound mind.
Good luck to you all as you take bold steps and great leaps forward achieve great things in this year 2016.
They may not deserve it but they need it.
Merry Christmas to you all.
Pharaoh may think he got you in his grip,
But rest assured your God is never too late,
He’s always right on time,
Trust Him still,
Your Red Sea Miracle is right ahead.
They’ve been times I almost gave up.
There are times I feel like throwing in the towel.
Very often I’ve wanted to do something really stupid…
But then I thought of how it will affect my son,
How he will live to suffer the effect…
Then I decided to choose the better option,
Even if it was the most difficult.
That is how God deals with us…
Because of His son He forgives you even when He shouldn’t,
He answers your prayers when you don’t deserve it,
He forgives you when you mess up,
He promises great things for you that you can not pay for
BECAUSE OF HIS SON.
What will you give to God this season BECAUSE OF HIS SON?
Give Him your whole heart, your worship and trust.
That’s the least you can do BECAUSE OF HIS SON.
After talking about the weakness he’s made to endure, after showing how he takes pleasure in weaknesses, reproaches, persecutions and distresses, Apostle Paul says something that really becomes an eye opener for me.
“For Christ’s sake.”
The only reason he will take the shame, the pain and the rain is for Christ’s sake. If it is not for Christ’s sake he won’t take it.
If we Christian people aren’t careful we could accept anything, anyhow, anywhere and from anybody with “joy and gladness” thinking we are being very spiritual.
The only reason that authorizes you to endure suffering is for Christ’s sake. If it’s not for that reason, get out of there.
If it’s not for the name of God to be glorified, if it’s not for the gospel to reach the uttermost parts, if it’s not to help a brother/sister in distress, get out of there.
Thank you for depriving me
You have taught me to seek and to find
Thank you for rejecting me
It has taught me to love me
Thank you for ostracizing me
It has taught me to like my own company
Thank you for victimizing me
It has taught me to fight back like a lioness
Thank you for despising me
It has put in me the thirst for achievement
Thank you for silencing me
I have become a voice for the voiceless
Thank you for the wounds you inflicted in me
I have become a healer of wounded souls; and I love it.
What you meant for evil
The Lord has turned for my good.
This is the greatest test of love for God;
when it seems like He’s hidden His face from you or turned His back…
when you feel like your world is falling apart, yet you choose to keep loving Him.
when you live on medication, yet you sing praises to Him…
when you even take your pills to church because you
gonna be needing them during worship service; that is what it means to love Jesus.
Are you living in captivity? Are you a captive to drugs, poverty, depression, disease…Do you feel like God has given up on you?
Does it seem like no deliverance is forth coming because you have considered and examined all the possibilities and there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel?
Guess what? You’ve not considered all the possibilities yet. Someone is holding that trump card you need. I’ll tell you a story.
Israel is in captivity in Babylon. There seems to be no hope for them because God Himself has sent them away from the Promise Land.
Will they ever return home some day? Is there any hope of ever worshiping again from the Holy Temple?
All this while, God’s plan is in progress.
At the appointed time God stirs up the heart of a heathen king who then “orders” that the captives be released so they can go rebuild the temple and again offer up sacrifices to the God of heaven. Ezra the scribe and his brethren get to work as if in a dream.
So stop asking yourself how it’s going to happen. The ways of God are truly mysterious. You never can tell where the next miracle is coming from.
Only believe and refuse to quit.