I’m alive yet,
I’m not where I want to be yet,
I haven’t quit yet,
I’ve not failed yet.
I’m alive yet,
I’m not where I want to be yet,
I haven’t quit yet,
I’ve not failed yet.
Never downgrade yourself in order to be accepted in lower circles,
Those who need you will upgrade themselves to your level
Then they will join your club.
Remember, many look up to you for inspiration and leadership.
Do not disappoint them because you want to please people who have refused to grow up.
You may stoop down to bring them up,
But never stoop too low as to become one of them.
The world needs the big you, the courageous you, the brave you.
Stoop to conquer.
It’s not just about having followers
It’s more about having followers who really do follow
It’s not just about having likes
It’s more about having likes that come from the heart
It’s not just about having a church
It’s more about having a church that transforms the church-goer
It’s not just about having a job
It’s more about giving our best at that job
It’s not just about having kids
It’s more about experiencing the joy of parenthood
It’s not just about having a spouse
It’s more about finding the bone of my bone
It’s not just about being educated
It’s more about being transformed by our education
It’s not just about having a leadership position
It’s more about leading people in the right direction
It’s not just about giving
It’s more about becoming a gift to my generation
It’s not just about saying something
It’s more about meaning what we say.
We all are tired of the superficial;
Let’s peel the layers and get deeper;
I love it real and authentic…and you?
This post is in response to a request from a fellow blogger and reader based on the last post I published titled “Why I got out of bed this morning”. In this post I said my life took a completely new turn (a positive turn) when God showed me my purpose.
My fellow blogger wanted me to share my experience; how I came to discover my purpose. I will just give a run down of how it all started up till this moment.
The early part of my life was littered with verbal, sexual and physical abuse. I’ve known rejection, disease and acute poverty. This to me was the normal since I didn’t have access to another kind of life.
Due to these conditions I became an adolescent and young woman who suffered immensely from low self-esteem, inferiority complex and insecurities. I hated myself, and the kind of choices I made later in life simply confirmed my state of mind. I became frustrated by my choices and the inability of others to understand what I was going through.
I gave my life to Christ while studying to become a professional teacher. I came to Christ with a heavy load of troubles. My life was meaningless and dirty in my own very eyes.
Although I was envied by many for my academic success, I hated myself so much.
Once in the church, things did not get right immediately. There was a battle for my soul. God had rescued me but the devil wanted me so badly. This opened up the avenue for constant spiritual warfare. Very early on in my Christian journey I learned how to fast, pray and rebuke evil spirits (They were all over me).
I had to seek solutions, and I sought them wherever I thought possible. I attended crusades, bought books and tapes, asked to be prayed for and then fasted and prayed on my own. But this didn’t prove to be the magic wand I expected.
Little did I know that God had destined me to be His servant and that all what I was going through was part of the training for ministry. Sometimes I thought God didn’t care about me. I then wanted to die. I really wanted to end the stress and trauma because that is all my life comprised of.
During the early stages of my conversion I began to have these “strange” dreams and visions wherein I found myself ministering prayer, healing and deliverance to people. I later understood through the teachings I was exposed to that God was showing me my calling. At that stage I didn’t understand much of it.
Also, I once heard a sermon that really shook the foundation of my Christianity and pushed me to seek God deeper. The preacher challenged Christians to stop being those who “sit and watch” while others serve in the church.
I must admit that I didn’t like the way he described those of us who were not in active service in God’s house. I felt a holy anger in me that sent me on my knees asking God what He wanted me to do in His house.
I attended foundation classes for new converts. There, I learned the difference between general service and specialized service. The former is for those who do not yet know their particular area of calling and the latter is for those who already know exactly what God has called them to do.
I was challenged and I began to serve in the church. I have served with the cleaners, the hospitality team; I’ve been a Sunday school teacher, an intercessor, the intercessors’ leader, a member of the women’s ministry among others. Then one day when Pastor was transferred I was asked to assume the interim until a new Pastor was sent to the church.
I learned a lot in these various capacities. This general service established my foundation as a Christian and gave me a base for ministry.
As I continued serving in the church and spending time in intimacy with God He began to show me my area of specialization. This was facilitated by the books I read, tapes I listened to, sermons I heard, other men and women of God I observed, prophecy, and then seminars and workshops I attended.
I never missed any opportunity to attend conferences and seminars even if I had to forgo other needs just to afford the transportation I needed. I was hungry for more of God and He honored my hunger with deeper knowledge about Himself and His call on my life. I always came back from the events enriched and refreshed.
But I still had issues. Only gradually did God take them away one at a time.
I’ll like to cite a few of the resources which among others really helped me during my search.
I accessed other numerous resources by servants of God like Bishop T.D. Jakes, Arch Bishop Benson Idahosa, just to name these few. (I’ve read a mountain of books and I’ve bought a great number of tapes. I’ve been to so many conferences and I’ve sat down to talk to not a few servants of God).
In the end God made me to understand that He let me go through hell so that I would help others come out of hell. I’m a survivor called to reach out to others and help them survive.
But in all these, God’s grace has been superabundant in my life. I owe it all to His mercy and favor.
If not for His grace, there’s no other reason why I should be alive today.
What I can say is that it takes patience, intimacy with God, the willingness to learn, to sacrifice and endurance, when things seem to go directly opposite to what God had promised you through dreams, visions, prophecy and especially His own Word, the Bible.
I’m still searching and I’m still learning. I agree with the Apostle Paul:
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus (Philippians 3:13-14).
I hope and pray someone is inspired by this resume of my testimony to seek God more and to get to know Him in a deeper dimension.
You are blessed in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Certainty is born out of conflict. You take a decision because you are faced with alternatives.
You’ll never know whether you’re focused until something tries to pull you out of your chosen path. Temptations and distractions can help you establish priorities if they are well managed.
When you face attractive alternatives and choose to remain faithful to your chosen course, then you know you are a focused and purpose-driven person.
Prophet Elijah had just show cased the power of God and the anointing on his life by challenging and then killing the prophets of Baal as proof of the fact that his own God, the Almighty is the only true God.
When Queen Jezebel their spiritual leader hears of it she promises to reduce Elijah to the same fate. The prophet runs for his dear life and hides himself far away from the city. He is depressed and suicidal. He wants to end it all.
What a paradoxical reaction just after the Mount Carmel demonstration of God’s power.
God comes to him and asks him a very simple but profound question;
“What are you doing here Elijah?”
Has God now changed? Has He ceased to be the same God who answers by fire?
Today this same God is asking some of us; “what are you doing here my daughter/ my son?
What are you doing in that depression, talented young lady?
What are you doing in that suicide idealization, gifted young man?
What are you doing in that sickness and infirmity, daughter of the Most High?
What are you doing in that fear and uncertainty, wise old leader?
Have you forgotten how I showed up for you in the past?
Have you forgotten how we broke protocol in the past?
What are you doing here Elijah?
Some time ago I met an individual I have been helping by providing them with some financial support. When I got a closer look at them I realized they were bigger than the help I was offering them. They deserved better, and I wasn’t the one to give them the greener pastures they deserved. They were supposed to go get it.
As I was meditating on these things the following words came to my mind, “you are where you are because I have been giving you a palliative. Henceforth I will no longer give that to you and you will be able to go for the real thing.” This is how I got the inspiration for this post.
Some people are where they are today because they settled for a palliative and forgot the real thing. A palliative is anything that stops you from going for the original or permanent solution. Sometimes we quickly settle for things that make us feel good for a time or season only to realize later that we are missing out on a lot of things.
Why do people accept palliatives?
When we do not have the mind-set of an achiever or world-changer. When we easily get satisfied with mediocre results.
The price to pay for a permanent solution may seem too high and unreachable.
When we are in a hurry to satisfy our desires and are not ready to be patient and get the real deal.
Ignorance about what is ours and the right we have to take possession of it. Did God not say it is ignorance that makes us perish (Hosea 4:6)?
When the palliative offers temporary satisfaction that is very similar to what we originally dreamed of.
Don’t make of that place, situation, job or position your permanent habitation if God has promised you more. I refuse to go back to Egypt but I equally will not settle in the wilderness. I will enter Canaan no matter how many giants are there. I refuse to be satisfied with less than what God has promised.