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HOW I DISCOVERED MY CALLING AND PURPOSE (My Testimony)

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This post is in response to a request from a fellow blogger and reader based on the last post I published titled “Why I got out of bed this morning”. In this post I said my life took a completely new turn (a positive turn) when God showed me my purpose.

My fellow blogger wanted me to share my experience; how I came to discover my purpose. I will just give a run down of how it all started up till this moment.

The early part of my life was littered with verbal, sexual and physical abuse. I’ve known rejection, disease and acute poverty. This to me was the normal since I didn’t have access to another kind of life.

Due to these conditions I became an adolescent and young woman who suffered immensely from low self-esteem, inferiority complex and insecurities. I hated myself, and the kind of choices I made later in life simply confirmed my state of mind. I became frustrated by my choices and the inability of others to understand what I was going through.

I gave my life to Christ while studying to become a professional teacher. I came to Christ with a heavy load of troubles. My life was meaningless and dirty in my own very eyes.

Although I was envied by many for my academic success, I hated myself so much.

Once in the church, things did not get right immediately. There was a battle for my soul. God had rescued me but the devil wanted me so badly. This opened up the avenue for constant spiritual warfare. Very early on in my Christian journey I learned how to fast, pray and rebuke evil spirits (They were all over me).

I had to seek solutions, and I sought them wherever I thought possible. I attended crusades, bought books and tapes, asked to be prayed for and then fasted and prayed on my own. But this didn’t prove to be the magic wand I expected.

Little did I know that God had destined me to be His servant and that all what I was going through was part of the training for ministry. Sometimes I thought God didn’t care about me. I then wanted to die. I really wanted to end the stress and trauma because that is all my life comprised of.

During the early stages of my conversion I began to have these “strange” dreams and visions wherein I found myself ministering prayer, healing and deliverance to people. I later understood through the teachings I was exposed to that God was showing me my calling. At that stage I didn’t understand much of it.

Also, I once heard a sermon that really shook the foundation of my Christianity and pushed me to seek God deeper. The preacher challenged Christians to stop being those who “sit and watch” while others serve in the church.

I must admit that I didn’t like the way he described those of us who were not in active service in God’s house. I felt a holy anger in me that sent me on my knees asking God what He wanted me to do in His house.

I attended foundation classes for new converts. There, I learned the difference between general service and specialized service. The former is for those who do not yet know their particular area of calling and the latter is for those who already know exactly what God has called them to do.

I was challenged and I began to serve in the church. I have served with the cleaners, the hospitality team; I’ve been a Sunday school teacher, an intercessor, the intercessors’ leader, a member of the women’s ministry among others. Then one day when Pastor was transferred I was asked to assume the interim until a new Pastor was sent to the church.

I learned a lot in these various capacities. This general service established my foundation as a Christian and gave me a base for ministry.

As I continued serving in the church and spending time in intimacy with God He began to show me my area of specialization. This was facilitated by the books I read, tapes I listened to, sermons I heard, other men and women of God I observed, prophecy, and then seminars and workshops I attended.

I never missed any opportunity to attend conferences and seminars even if I had to forgo other needs just to afford the transportation I needed. I was hungry for more of God and He honored my hunger with deeper knowledge about Himself and His call on my life. I always came back from the events enriched and refreshed.

But I still had issues. Only gradually did God take them away one at a time.

I’ll like to cite a few of the resources which among others really helped me during my search.

  1. Your season is getting ready to change by Pastor Paula White (tape).
  2. The Assignment, the Dream and the Destiny by Dr. Mike Murdock (book).
  3. Maximize Your Potential by Dr. Myles Monroe (book).
  4. Tough Times Never Last, but tough people do by Dr. Robert Schuller (book).
  5. The confident woman by Joyce Meyer (book).

I accessed other numerous resources by servants of God like Bishop T.D. Jakes, Arch Bishop Benson Idahosa, just to name these few. (I’ve read a mountain of books and I’ve bought a great number of tapes. I’ve been to so many conferences and I’ve sat down to talk to not a few servants of God).

In the end God made me to understand that He let me go through hell so that I would help others come out of hell. I’m a survivor called to reach out to others and help them survive.

But in all these, God’s grace has been superabundant in my life. I owe it all to His mercy and favor.

If not for His grace, there’s no other reason why I should be alive today.

What I can say is that it takes patience, intimacy with God, the willingness to learn, to sacrifice and endurance, when things seem to go directly opposite to what God had promised you through dreams, visions, prophecy and especially His own Word, the Bible.

I’m still searching and I’m still learning. I agree with the Apostle Paul:

Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,

I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus (Philippians 3:13-14).

I hope and pray someone is inspired by this resume of my testimony to seek God more and to get to know Him in a deeper dimension.

You are blessed in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

 

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How focused are you? Take the test.

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Certainty is born out of conflict

You’ll never know whether you’re focused until something tries to pull you out of your chosen path.

Temptations and distractions can help you establish priorities if they are well managed.

  • Should I marry or pursue a career?
  • Do I choose adventure or my studies?
  • Should I cook supper for him or take a cup tea and go to bed?
  • Should I go to church or to the party?

When you face attractive alternatives and choose to remain faithful to your chosen course, then you know you are a focused and purpose-driven person.

TOO EMOTIONALLY CONNECTED? IT’S TIME TO GET GOING.

Life is made up of times and seasons. We are called upon to move on from one place, situation and level to another. This will happen to each one of us from time to time. There are moments of transition and there are new challenges and targets to handle all the times.

We can’t grow, make progress or even succeed in life if we get stuck in one position.
The problem with people like me is that we often get too emotionally attached to some situations that are meant to be only temporary; a job, a mentor, a habitation etc. It becomes difficult to let go and keep going when it’s time to break camp and advance.

In my own experience, God has dealt with this issue in my life in a number of ways:
A. He sometimes provokes a conflict that will then end up kicking me out of my comfort zone.
B. He sometimes incites people to reject and hate me outright. This is usually when I insist on holding unto a dead end- a relationship that has come to its natural end.
c. I have had situations where I was moved to hate an environment; this as preparation for me to move to a new location. Isn’t it amazing that the things that you loved and cherished yesterday have become simply unbearable to you today? Perhaps it’s time to move on.

 Now, let’s be very careful here. There are things you are not permitted to move on from. You can’t just move on from your marriage, spouse and kids because you no longer feel like staying on. You will be hurting a whole lot of people and bringing more disorder and pain in society. You can’t move on from your assignment because things have become too tough. God calls us for life, not for ‘as long as it feels good’.

 Sometimes the movement is not necessarily physical. It might be emotional or psychological; you may have to stop engaging in a certain activity, dressing in a particular style or treating someone in a particular manner. For instance, when your children become adolescents you move on from the way to used to talk to them when they were just little kids.

 Remember, there is no promotion without movement (physical or mental). If you resist moving on when it is the time to do so you could miss out on what God wants to do in your life for that season. You could then be stuck on one spot all your life.
On your marks, get set, move…

THE DREAM

The dream I carry is so big, so vast, so deep…I’m frightened by the sheer size of it.

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When I think about it I feel like giving up… “This is too much for me Lord; can’t you find someone else to do it?”

But when I think of where God took me (from the pit), When I think of how far we’ve come together, somehow I find the courage to go on.

He didn’t bring me this far just to abandon me here. He never starts a project that He doesn’t intend to finish.

It is not just my dream…it is His dream. He communicated it to me. I do not need to pay for it from my own pocket. He will sponsor His dream because it is about His Kingdom.

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I am convinced that in the end I will have reason to celebrate. Those who trust in Him shall not be put to shame.

WE’VE COME A LONG WAY

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Hello there my dear reader. It’s been one year since I started on the bloggers’ journey. It’s been exciting, rewarding and really full of lessons for me. I hope I have been a blessing to you too.

I just want to thank you for your love. I cherish every moment I have spent with you. I cherish every click, like, comment and follow. In fact each of your loving gestures have been a great encouragement to me.

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On this journey I have had a deeper understanding of myself, the world and people. I have learned that the human experience is the same everywhere. That we face the same challenges and seek the same solutions.

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I have this message for you as you strive to end this year in beauty and splendor. You are a special person on planet earth. You are not here by chance. You have a purpose and an assignment. You are here to impact your generation. You are a blessing to many. A lot of people count on you. Take that first step and you will soon go places.

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WHAT KIND OF LEADER ARE YOU?

 

No matter what we are called to do in life, no matter where we fine ourselves, we will have to submit to some kind of leadership or the other. Chances are that we might be the one in leadership position. A leader is the Captain of the ship. He is the visionary in the house and can like God, see the end from the beginning. He gives direction because he knows the destination.

 

       A leader who feels threatened by the gifts and potentials of his follower cannot effectively handle his duties. When the relationship with a leader reaches a level where he really feels threatened and insecure with the mentee, disciple or follower, the best solution is for them to part because there is bound to be conflict, suspicion and little or no collaboration.

       This should not be so. A leader should know his capacity and potential and equally understand that there comes a time when the mentor has completely duplicated himself in his disciple. This means that the latter can do almost all that his master does, but for the many years of wisdom-inspiring experience which the master has acquired and which his disciple is still aspiring to.

       In Genesis chapter 31, Jacob had to quit Laban because the latter was becoming intimidated by Jacob’s speed and progress. The house became too little to contain the two and it was difficult to know who was master and who was servant. Laban became really uncomfortable with his nephew’s progress. If you spend your entire life with such people, you will hardly fulfill your destiny. They are too bitter about their own slow progress to help you advance; they are too jealous to recommend you to your Boaz (Ruth 3:1-4) and they will intentionally withhold information that could help launch you into your destiny. This should not be so because a child, no matter how smart, will never be greater than his father and the joy of a father should be to see his children achieve what he has dreamed up.

Let us consider the story of King Saul and young David. When God anointed David King in the place of Saul, it was time for the latter to retire from active service and let his “son” David take up the relay baton. This was the time for Saul to humble himself and take on the role of a mentor to this young king since he knew the terrain already. He had been there already, made some mistakes; now he could have said, “son, I made some mistakes I’m not proud of and I will not like you to do same. We have the same mission, to lead God’s people so I will help you as best as I can to fulfil your divine assignment.” No. Saul saw David as a rival. He was not comfortable with his progress. This pushed him to extreme bitterness and wickedness.

However, David being a more mature leader even at his young age remained humble and wise under the terrible rule of Saul and refused to harm him even when it was in his power to do it. David fulfilled his assignment in spite of it all.

No matter how uncomfortable you might feel about someone’s progress, you cannot stop what God wants to do in their life. No matter how hard you try to destroy them, God’s sovereignty will finally prevail. So why not rather team up with them so that you can benefit from the fall outs?

Since submission to leadership is inevitable in life, we must pray for God to place us under good leadership and once we find ourselves in such positions, we should continue to pray for our leaders so that we may lead a quiet and  peaceable life (1 Timothy 2 1-2).

 

 

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