Posts tagged ‘friend’
Did you ever find yourself in a situation where you couldn’t even trust yourself let alone another person?
Did you ever find yourself in a situation where God’s WORD became your sole friend, fan and fortifier, yet you didn’t even know if it’s God speaking?
Have you ever had so many divergent views on the same issue that you became stark raving confused?
I’ve been there. Below is a prayer I wrote to God some time ago. You may find some aspects of it very similar to what you have experienced at some time in your own walk with God.
Permit me to be a little transparent here. Be edified as you read.
Lord, from day one I have prayed to you asking that if this thing is not from you then let it end and let us part ways. I have told you to take it away from me if it is not your will for me.
The more I prayed the more it is growing. So who is answering me now, You, my emotions or the devil?
Will you give me a stone if I ask for bread? A snake if I ask for fish? A scorpion if I ask for an egg?
Will you let grow that which is supposed to die?
Lord, how else am I supposed to pray? Please Daddy, if this is a trial, a test, let me pass it now for good.
Why must I suffer so much? Daddy, you see my heart. You know I love you and will willingly follow your leading when I’m sure it is you leading.
Why the divergent views Lord? Who is right and who is wrong? Are my emotions tricking me? Then help me out Lord.
Will satan fight against satan? If this relationship is from satan, then why is satan fighting it also?
Lord Jesus did you not say that satan won’t fight himself or he’ll fail?
Lord, is this your character? That I ask of you to take it away if it’s not from you and you rather make it grow the more? Will you do that to me Daddy? Why will you do that?
Do you take pleasure in afflicting your dear daughter? Will you also hide the truth from me?
If you do not tell me the truth, who will?
Lord, if I’m being deceived, show it to me.
If I’m living in self-deception show it to me.
If the devil is tricking me show it to me.
If you are talking and I’m not getting you show it to me.
For the sake of your Name and Kingdom tell me the truth Lord.
I see you in that dark little room
All alone and lonesome in your thoughts
Wondering what is driving everyone around
To that frenzy of excitement and craze.
I see you wiping a tear from your cheek
Asking yourself why you have to go on
When there is just so little to live for.
I see you, angry and bitter and broke
Because you can’t join in the celebration
Not because you don’t want to
But because you don’t fit in.
I see you draw the blinds in frustration
“Who cares if I don’t go out?
No one’s gonna miss me anyway.
They’re all having fun out there.”
I want to tell you dear friend
That someone misses you so bad
Though they may not have the courage to say so
They miss that smile though so rare.
Jesus came for you too my friend
Any little act of love, joy and peace
You pose this season
Honors and welcomes your Friend to the earth.
So go out there and join the celebration
Not because you feel like it
But because He feels for you, just you
And wants to hold you in His arms.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU. JESUS CARES, YES INDEED HE DOES. HE SEES YOUR PAIN, SHAME AND LONELINESS. HE COMMUNICATED IT TO MY HEART AND GAVE ME THESE WORDS JUST FOR YOU. I CAN FEEL YOUR YEARNINGS AND DESIRES. NOT BECAUSE I’M SUPER HUMAN, BUT BECAUSE I’VE BEEN THERE TOO. HE WIPED AWAY MY TEARS; HE WILL DO SAME FOR YOU.
When the time seems to stop
And the clock ticks but stays on the spot
When you feel like the world and all its troubles
Stand but on your own little shoulders
Do something, just do something.
Sit not still and wish for death
Do not lie down and call for the dark
Question not the essence of living
Just keep seeing, thinking, breathing
For when it is over, it is not yet over.
Do something, just do something
Go out there and run it off your muscles
Sit by the river and think it off your head
Meet a friend and talk it off your chest
Meet your Friend and pray it out of existence.
THOUGHTS OF A HURTING HEART
I look in the mirror and I see my worst enemy
Staring back as if to mock
I turn round the corner and there she sits
Looking up to me with accusing eyes
And when I dare to look within
I meet a heart that bleeds and pleads.
She is in me and she is around me
How do I run away from her?
I will face up to my worst enemy
And make of her my very best friend
I will love my worst enemy
For my worst enemy is me.
Do not hate yourself because of what you are going through. Rather, love and cherish who you are and that will open up a door of possibilities for your healing.