Posts tagged ‘friend’
Did you ever find yourself in a situation where you couldn’t even trust yourself let alone another person?
Did you ever find yourself in a situation where God’s WORD became your sole friend, fan and fortifier, yet you didn’t even know if it’s God speaking?
Have you ever had so many divergent views on the same issue that you became stark raving confused?
I’ve been there. Below is a prayer I wrote to God some time ago. You may find some aspects of it very similar to what you have experienced at some time in your own walk with God.
Permit me to be a little transparent here. Be edified as you read.
Lord, from day one I have prayed to you asking that if this thing is not from you then let it end and let us part ways. I have told you to take it away from me if it is not your will for me.
The more I prayed the more it is growing. So who is answering me now, You, my emotions or the devil?
Will you give me a stone if I ask for bread? A snake if I ask for fish? A scorpion if I ask for an egg?
Will you let grow that which is supposed to die?
Lord, how else am I supposed to pray? Please Daddy, if this is a trial, a test, let me pass it now for good.
Why must I suffer so much? Daddy, you see my heart. You know I love you and will willingly follow your leading when I’m sure it is you leading.
Why the divergent views Lord? Who is right and who is wrong? Are my emotions tricking me? Then help me out Lord.
Will satan fight against satan? If this relationship is from satan, then why is satan fighting it also?
Lord Jesus did you not say that satan won’t fight himself or he’ll fail?
Lord, is this your character? That I ask of you to take it away if it’s not from you and you rather make it grow the more? Will you do that to me Daddy? Why will you do that?
Do you take pleasure in afflicting your dear daughter? Will you also hide the truth from me?
If you do not tell me the truth, who will?
Lord, if I’m being deceived, show it to me.
If I’m living in self-deception show it to me.
If the devil is tricking me show it to me.
If you are talking and I’m not getting you show it to me.
For the sake of your Name and Kingdom tell me the truth Lord.
I see you in that dark little room
All alone and lonesome in your thoughts
Wondering what is driving everyone around
To that frenzy of excitement and craze.
I see you wiping a tear from your cheek
Asking yourself why you have to go on
When there is just so little to live for.
I see you, angry and bitter and broke
Because you can’t join in the celebration
Not because you don’t want to
But because you don’t fit in.
I see you draw the blinds in frustration
“Who cares if I don’t go out?
No one’s gonna miss me anyway.
They’re all having fun out there.”
I want to tell you dear friend
That someone misses you so bad
Though they may not have the courage to say so
They miss that smile though so rare.
Jesus came for you too my friend
Any little act of love, joy and peace
You pose this season
Honors and welcomes your Friend to the earth.
So go out there and join the celebration
Not because you feel like it
But because He feels for you, just you
And wants to hold you in His arms.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU. JESUS CARES, YES INDEED HE DOES. HE SEES YOUR PAIN, SHAME AND LONELINESS. HE COMMUNICATED IT TO MY HEART AND GAVE ME THESE WORDS JUST FOR YOU. I CAN FEEL YOUR YEARNINGS AND DESIRES. NOT BECAUSE I’M SUPER HUMAN, BUT BECAUSE I’VE BEEN THERE TOO. HE WIPED AWAY MY TEARS; HE WILL DO SAME FOR YOU.
When the time seems to stop
And the clock ticks but stays on the spot
When you feel like the world and all its troubles
Stand but on your own little shoulders
Do something, just do something.
Sit not still and wish for death
Do not lie down and call for the dark
Question not the essence of living
Just keep seeing, thinking, breathing
For when it is over, it is not yet over.
Do something, just do something
Go out there and run it off your muscles
Sit by the river and think it off your head
Meet a friend and talk it off your chest
Meet your Friend and pray it out of existence.
THOUGHTS OF A HURTING HEART
I look in the mirror and I see my worst enemy
Staring back as if to mock
I turn round the corner and there she sits
Looking up to me with accusing eyes
And when I dare to look within
I meet a heart that bleeds and pleads.
She is in me and she is around me
How do I run away from her?
I will face up to my worst enemy
And make of her my very best friend
I will love my worst enemy
For my worst enemy is me.
Do not hate yourself because of what you are going through. Rather, love and cherish who you are and that will open up a door of possibilities for your healing.
Like the sun I get warmth from your rays
Like a tree I get shelter from your leaves
Like a star I follow you to my destination
Like a brand new car I drive you with new pleasure
Like a friend I confide in you
Like a bull I take you by the horns
Like the air I take a fresh breath of you every second
Since we are bound to be together for quite a while
I come to you with boldness and hope
knowing that faithful is He who has all things in control
Are you feeling lonely? Have family and friends abandoned or rejected you? Are you unmarried, childless or far away from home in a foreign land? Do you lack someone with whom you can share your joy, sorrows, fears and dreams? God knows all about it. Perhaps He even permitted it in order to get your attention. I’ve been there too. I have lived a situation whereby everybody in my environment wanted nothing to do with me. They were either too ashamed or too ignorant to identify with my affliction. My family was far away and I felt very lonely; alone in the crowd. At such a time, I learned to draw very close to my heavenly Father. He became my closest neighbor.
That is why I have developed a particular prayer language whereby if you hear me praying without seeing me, you may think I’m having a conversation with an intimate friend. He is my intimate friend indeed. It is something like this; “Daddy, I’m so hungry I can’t bear it any longer, what do you think about my new dress? I feel jealous of that lady, help me overcome it, do you know that I’m angry with you for letting me fall ill? I don’t like Mary and she just gets on my nerves. What do we do about it?” When you have gone through periods in your life when you had no one to talk to, you learn how to treat God as husband, friend, family, boss, etc. There were times when I wanted to be hugged and kissed and all I had was God, I wanted to be offered a bunch of roses but all I got was God, so I learned to take Him as my lover and spouse and what have you. This brought me to closeness with God which is really blessing me today. I have learned to depend on God alone so I’m no longer afraid to be rejected, so I am not afraid to be frank and honest in my opinion. I can boldly say today, I and God are majority.
Do not get me wrong; I still need my fellow humans, but if for some reason they become a source of trouble to me, I can easily send them off and turn to my God. What about you? Are you so keen on being surrounded by friends to the point where you compromise just to have some around? Who is your closest neighbor and why? Do not be afraid to say “no” to the wrong company. You will always find a better friendship in God.
What do you see when you look back on your life and the years you have spent on earth? Wasted years, ignorance and its consequences? No matter what your life is or has been, thank God you are still alive, thus there is a possibility to make amends. God’s grace surely covers up our times of ignorance, but requires that we repent and be transformed (Romans 12:2) Now that you have come to the knowledge of the truth, there is no need crying over things you can never change, “oh if only I knew, if someone had told me…” The truth is, you cannot turn back the hands of time and you cannot even wipe off the chapters of your past.
One day I told myself, if only I could be conceived anew, I will give my life to Christ right from my mother’s womb, so that by the time I step into this world, I will be a Holy Ghost-filled, tongue–talking born again child of God. But that is never going to happen so I have learned to live as best as I can , forgetting those things that are behind and reaching for the best which is yet to come. No matter how good or bad your past has been, it cannot be compared to the things God has in store for you. You are still alive, you still have it all.
What is your label? What does the world call you? What is your reaction to it? Have you settled for it or do you have the guts to walk out on it? The Samaritan woman in John chapter 4 had a turn around. She said “no” to the label of emotional instability when she listened to and believed Jesus’ words. Mary Magdalene rejected the etiquette ‘possessed woman’ when she ran to Jesus for help. When Jesus showed up in the life of the woman at the synagogue, the label ‘bent double’ became a thing of the past.
God knows what label the world has given you. Maybe they call you barren, prostitute, accursed, bastard, etc. Rest assured that this is not what your Daddy calls you. However, He is looking to see the attitude you will put on as regards this appellation. Are you mean or complacent enough to add your signature to it or will you run to Him for a change of name? The choice is yours. However, it is not what the world says about you that matters. It is what your Creator says. He formed your inner parts. He knows the gifts and potential that is hidden behind your weaknesses and failures. He alone is qualified to label you and I assure you that if you knew what He thinks about you, you will shout for joy.
VOICES FROM THE PAST
Who are those voices speaking from your past? They know too much about you, your family lineage, where you were born, whom you grew up with, what you ate, wore; in short, a bit too much about you. Basing their intentions on the few details they have about you, they think they are qualified to name your babies. Luke 1:58-59 says the neighbors of Elizabeth and Zachariah thought of a better name for John the Baptist because they thought they knew so much about this family. Such people think you should marry X and not Y, go to such a school and live in such a house. They know what type of services your bank account can purchase.
Some of these voices are even crueler. They try to use your past failures, errors and weaknesses to humiliate, mock ridicule and limit you, keeping your head permanently bowed down. But I have good news for you. Your heavenly Father never consults your past to determine your future. He does not even consult your former neighbors, friends and acquaintances because their report about you will be tinted by prejudice, jealousy and blatant wickedness. (The heart of man is desperately wicked (Jeremiah 17:9). God has chosen to use the base things of the world for His glory. Do not let them stop you. Tell the devil to get behind you because the dream in you is too big to be killed by some faint voices from the past.
Child of God, if you still keep relationships with such voices from you past, make up your mind to break away from them this very moment. Get connected to people who can see beyond your past, who can mentor your dream or help you dream up a glorious future. Refuse to be dominated by that voice from your past.
WHO DO YOU RESEMBLE?
We are created in God’s image. We are created to be a reflection of God’s personality (holiness, love, power, peace, joy etc.). We are not created in the devil’s image, so we must never be a reflection of his nature (sin, poverty, weakness, fear wickedness etc.).
The next time you are walking down the street, ask yourself whose kingdom you are advertising. Do onlookers see the glory of God in you or the shame and reproach of the devil? I have learned one lesson, a very important one. Never let people read your problems on your face. No matter what you are going through, ask of God the Grace to have a ‘clean front’. You are created to glorify God, refuse to be a mobile billboard for the devil’s publicity.