Thank you for depriving me
You have taught me to seek and to find
Thank you for rejecting me
It has taught me to love me
Thank you for ostracizing me
It has taught me to like my own company
Thank you for victimizing me
It has taught me to fight back like a lioness
Thank you for despising me
It has put in me the thirst for achievement
Thank you for silencing me
I have become a voice for the voiceless
Thank you for the wounds you inflicted in me
I have become a healer of wounded souls; and I love it.
What you meant for evil
The Lord has turned for my good.
Do you dread speaking out about some of the things that have happened to you? You do not need to carry that secret load alone all your life. These are some of the fears that keep people in their dark silent prison for years.
- Perhaps God is already angry with me and if I go ahead to talk about it He will reject me.
Jesus came for the lost, the last and the least (Matthew 9:12). God did not wait for you to be worthy before He sent Jesus to die for you.
- If I told somebody, they will laugh at me for having been so dumb and stupid.
The fact is every body has done dumb things at least once in life and the person laughing at you may be having their own skeletons in the cupboard.
Jesus came for the lost, the last and the least (Matthew 9:12). God loves you even when you are still in your mess (Romans 5:8).
- I might be rejected by my family and friends
Well, anyone who will not accept your past is not qualified to access your future. God is taking you somewhere; do not let that ancient load hold you back.
- I do not want to think about it.
The ostrich option has never worked for any one. The monster you face is the monster you will overcome. Look at that thing in the face and tell it “I am too anointed to keep running away from you. I hail from the Lion of the tribe of Judah.
- I don’t want to lose my hard-earned reputation.
You better speak out with the right perspective before someone tells your story for you with a distorted view. Lasting reputation comes from God and He gives it without consulting the ancient file. I have worn masked in my life and I tell you they are not comfortable at all.
- I will be stigmatized and ostracized by my community etc.
Yes, I do not make light of that fact. It can be hard. But sometimes we just have to choose to be the pioneer and face the consequences. By speaking out, you are giving a voice to thousands of others in your generation and the generations to come.
But this is the advice I can give. If you want to share and you are not sure you have had the emotional healing you need, you will have to carefully choose the person you share with. It could help to share with mature and responsible people, God-fearing people who can handle your situation responsibly. This is because if you are still hurting and you go share with people who will want to use it to hurt you the more, it could really make the wounds more painful. Those who are already healed will not mind what anybody does with that information because when Jesus heals you He immunizes you against further hurts.